I want to cry my eyes out blluuuruhgh. I feel like I will never have the life I want to have and it hurts so bad. I'll never have it. Maybe when I'm older I guess but if my mom doesn't let me go to the bar like 5 times a week I will never be the bar-star boy magnet I want to be. And I'll never get there if I'm not dating my dream-boy. WTF AM I DOING. FUCKK I CANT.